After The Rain

It was a cold night.

I walked down in the empty street, trying to avoid dirt on the ground. Must be very careful to make my white shoes didn't ended up dirty. Rain just fell down few hours ago, left mark on asphalt and grass.

I Gently Put My Love Down

As a normal human being, love is something you can’t control. It’s unpredictable. It could happen to everyone. You can fall in love with someone you will never expected before, with a lot of reason (or no reason at all, it depends). You can fall easily because someone’s physical appearance, from the way they treat you or from how many times you spend time together with them. It works in a very mysterious way.

For the 20 years in my life, of course I’ve been experience a lot of love. But, I failed in most of time. I failed not because I treat my partner wrong, but because (almost) nobody is stay with me. You know, it’s just platonic love and something never happen. Most of them are just simply crush and easy to forget, some of them are love, but I’ve been in love deeply with someone. And... I’ve been told him that I loved him in a text, last 2014. And, again, ironically, I failed.

A Little Chit-Chat with Mom

During Eid Fitr holiday, I’m a less busy than the ordinary day. Sure, probably some of you know that I’m doing part-time job and study in college at the same time. Usually, I had a class at morning until afternoon, then went to office until late night. Around 22.00-24.00 p.m, I went home, feeling pretty wasted. On holiday, I sleep more than usually, and I feel the joy on it. It’s like a freedoom. I mean, temporary freedoom because within few days, I’ve go to work and college again. Damn.

            I wrote this on second day of Eid Fitr (26th June, 2017). I’ve just re-watched Legally Blonde movie (for the 3 or 4 times, I guess) and feeling confused because I don’t know what to do. So, I went to TV Room, and met my mother, watching  a movie. Then, the conversation begin...

Having Kid(s): Logical Reasons, Clueless or Social Pressure?

I met my highschool friend, few days ago. She was born in July 1995, a year older than me. She already have her second child, who was born in April 2017. Her first child born in 2015. If you followed my Instagram account, then you will know who she is. Alright, we were not see each other since 2015 (when I came to her house to see her baby), and we arranged to meet in a mall in North Surabaya. Not far from her mother-in law house and our highschool.

So, things going on very well. She told me about her life: marriage, kids, husband, job and et cetera. But, I actually have a some kind of secret mission (okay, this is not a secret anymore, haha). My mission is: to find out why she decided to having children. I mean, people having children with purpose, right? It must be any logical reason why people produce more and more babies in the world.

“So... You already have two kids. Are you planning to have another one?” I asked.

“I don’t know, maybe when my daughters getting into elementary school,” she answered.