After The Rain

It was a cold night.

I walked down in the empty street, trying to avoid dirt on the ground. Must be very careful to make my white shoes didn't ended up dirty. Rain just fell down few hours ago, left mark on asphalt and grass.

Suddenly, the wind came along. Breeze. It's getting cold. I kept my feet walk, while I checked time on the watch.

 

01:42 A.M.

Time flies so fast. Day by day gone, just like the color of the sky changing in a blink of eye.

I kept walking. The parking area was getting closer. It almost 200 meters again. Dark, foggy and empty. Remind me about my own life. Gloomy.

Few seconds later, I'm on the side of my car. I opened the door, then slammed it. Put the key, turn the radio on and went home. Surprisingly, the radio played one of my favorite song. It was 'Angel' by Robin Williams. The same song that covered by David Archuleta, my childhood idol.

My mind was filled up with a lot of grump and whinning. Mixed with a melancholy feelings. In the mood for being melancholy, I let myself dragged, just like leaves on the river.

"...and through it all
he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong..."

And then I remembered someone. It feels like he is here, with me. The one who willing to do anything for me. The one who puts me first before him. The one who always find a way to keep in touch with me, trying to make the conversation between us alive. The one who always proud to introduce me to his closest friend and family.

I smiled.

And tears went down from my eyes.

"Did you forget?" I said to myself. "It's the same person who walked away from your life!"

And suddenly, every happiness just disappear. There is no such thing immortal. Everything could die, even love too. Just like roses getting plucked from its roots, this is how I feel right now.

And I want to know why.
He filled me with happiness, then left me to die. Just like being in the dessert without water: I'm gonna die soon,

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Surabaya, November 14th 2017
02:39 A.M, after the rain.